Sigh

I wished the time would stretch longer. As fickle-minded as I am, I'm still contemplating whether I should be going to Gong to work. Mum is concerned I might get depressed with no friends, no church to go to yet, and all the relocating issues. Some say don't be picky...you're lucky to have a job. Still, others say just do what you really want, as long as you are happy. I AM happy, and I AM contented where I am now. But if I don't go, how would I know if I would not be happier?

I HATE to think about this. Leave me alone.

What Shall I Wear Today?

It's my daily question I struggle with.

Shall I match this with that?!
I don't think the skirt goes well!
The blouse is too short!
The colour of the jacket doesn't match what I'm wearing!

Notice the exclaimation marks at the end of the sentences. It's like going argggghhhh and then going #!@#@#%*& and then you look at the time and then you really start to panic. Next comes breakfast which includes cereal and toasted sandwich. Then it's Chloe's turn for breakfast. And then, the next big question is 'What shoe shall I wear'?

Yes I can go insane every morning doing this. I really need a personal assistant.

Brunswick Shopping...

Sucks big time. I was so looking forward to it. Don't get me wrong, I love the clothes there...funky, colourful, retro, there's even the best lamb/chicken souvlaki there on 300 Brunswick Street called Souvlaki King. Even received commendation from The Age which was published recently. So much better than Lambs. So much juicier and fresh and not burnt! I've never been back to Lambs since they changed management and they totally suck at wrapping the bread.

The retail shops are just too far from one another as opposed to Chapel or Bridge Road shopping. My girlfriend and I were hopping across the street all the time when we see the next shop. Too tiring! But to complement it, I managed to get some extra discount from already-cheap-items by looking for any faulty spots that could make up a reason to slash the price. That's what you call bargaining for cheaper! Hah!

Anyone interested to go DFO Moorabbin next weekend????

The Amazing Race

I'm a faithful follower of the Amazing Race. Please DO NOT tell me who wins in the end. I still want to feel the syiok-ness of knowing who wins. I hope either Chip&Kim or Brandon&Nicole wins. The teams are now in the 8th league of THE race around the world. And I so so want to go to Egypt. This has been one trip I must make, when I have the money of course!

As I look back to my amazing years in high school, college and uni, I can't believe it's all over. Welcome to the working world. So far so good. So far it's still exciting to come to work. So far it's been a whole new learning process of how this new world works. So far I've made good company with my colleagues. So far it's been good.

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There was AGAIN nothing for me to do today. I almost wanted to go ask my senior/mentor for some work to do when sleepiness kicked in at 9.30am. Yes! One hour after I started work. I hate Mondays now. I struggled to keep awake and I blame it on the good weekend I had. I haven't had 3 very late nights in a row since 1st year. Don't think goody two shoes teng teng don't go out to play. She's naughty too.

And I intend to keep it that way, at least for the weekends for now. Anybody organising any events, CALL ME!

Trust

Wow I didn't realise I haven't blogged for a week! Sorry bloggie! Heh!

Anyway there wasn't much excitement at work this week. It was BORING! There wasn't much work they could give me to do. Either they thought I couldn't do it or it would take them too long to explain it to me. A colleague of mine assured me that it was normal because I'm still new. As of yesterday, I am officially working as an engineer for one month!

Last night was one of the best OCF returnee's night I ever attended. The theme was retro and most people came dressed up! Other than having fun, something struck me deep. I believe God works in mysterious ways, using people and places and events.

I have been praying, and praying harder than I ever did before. I'm seeking and pleading to God to show me THE way. Hui Ling shared about trusting God and letting Him lead your life. No matter how hard, how far, how dark the tunnel is, how you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. God was there with us last night, celebrating and rejoicing and sending off friends who have graduated. Trust in Me, honour Me and I will honour you.

Most of you know I have been struggling to decide if I should go to NSW to work. I believe He has a plan for me, plan to prosper, plan to honour me, if only I can let go. If God knew I wasn't meant to be there, He would have closed this door of opportunity.

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It was peaceful. She wanted to go...long ago.

We tried to give her the very best of everything. We wanted to make her comfortable. But instead, she was not. She couldn't talk. Through her eyes, it was clear that she didn't want to suffer anymore. She was ready. Ready to leave...there are better things waiting for her at the other end of the spectrum. And we gladly let her go. The sky cried for her.

I was happy for her. I am. For I know the things of this world are only temporary. Only when I start thinking of her, the memories of her will flash before my eyes.

Don't cry for me, she whispered. I will try. I love you and will miss you.

It's coming back

It's back. I tried to run away. I tried to keep myself busy, even though there was nothing much to do at work for two days. Then, I got busy. The seniors seem to like to work in sync, passing me work to do in the span of just one hour. I tried to be busy cooking. Preparing dinner and packing lunch for the next day. I also packed breakfast all ready to be toasted and eaten in the morning.

And then, the email came. The feeling of guilt covered me and I tried to hide in its wings. No, it's too early. Ask me later I yelled. I don't want to think about it. Give me time. But you had time to think about it. Make up your mind!

I'm still selfish. Holding on to another job in NSW. I haven't decided...still. I know it's terrible of me. Lord, please show me what to do. Please reveal your heart's desire. Please, let me see your will. Amen.

Happy Bday RuD!

Got an invitation from Rudee for dinner. Just a dinner on Cup day. Doesn't that sound suspicious to you? Especially for someone who do not usually invite people out of his norm. It was too big a hint, Rudee... we figured it out! Imagine instead if we all came, without pressies, and left without bday wishes.... he would have been devastated... or maybe not!


Janice, RuDee, Lufee, Teddy.



CFoo, Dawn, Diane. Welcome back, Diane!



David, Ming, Jas, Johann, Vern. Tahniah!



Vern, Karen, HuiLing, Me.



Yum, crab noodles snapped up in seconds.



For he's a jolly good fellow....


Thanks for your camera and photos, courtesy of Mr J Tay.

Prayer Request

To my dearest friends who read my blog, please keep my dad in prayer. He was admitted to hospital on Friday, suffering from mitral regurgitation. (I know, that was exactly what my brother smsed me...and I was like, 'What does that mean?'). Maybe he's trying to mock me. Just because he's doing medicine.

It's a condition where the mitral valves in the heart do not close properly, resulting in reverse flow of blood back into the atrium when the heart contracts to pump blood to the body (Thanks for the extensive explanation, Rudee!). Hence, the heart does extra work and stresses more. He's feeling weak but resting at home now. I have this condition too which I only found out earlier this year. Looks like I inherited it from my old man.

Pray for his health, for good rest. And for my mum too as she takes care of dad, my very sick grandma and my siblings. It's tough.

Work

Sneaking to type this during my last 5 minutes of lunch break. Yes I have started work for one week. Work seems to be OK for now, and is FANTASTIC for today because almost everyone has taken leave. I'm happy that no one has asked me to do anything yet. I think I had better be quiet, sit in my cozy desk and mind my own business, ie sending emails and blogging! Haha!